Where's The Hidden Camera?
The only reason I'm still up at this unGodly hour is because if I don't let this out, I think I'll implode. Plus, my quadmate just got in the shower and I still have to get in there. So opportunity arose.
Like everyone else, I am under a great deal of stress. Unlike everyone else, I am ok. So although the things I say may not seem okay to you, know I am. For the time being. This is not a rant. Just the most ironic experience of my life, and it involves people I'm assuming are reading this. So here it goes:
I am seriously trying to figure out who is taping my life right now and trying to make it into a sitcom. I know that sounds really stupid, but you don't know what happened. Every phone call, every IM, every knock on the door today felt as though it was planned to the second. Every turn of event I saw coming hit me at once. It was like a hectic episode of Grey's Anatomy, minus the blood, surgery, and McDreamy. I'm not going into detail, but I just need to let out how extremely weird it was.
One fact I will enclose is that Greg and I are no longer together. It was for the best. Anyone who wants to know anything else can talk to me. I'm just not going to pour out my love life on the internet. And although I haven't slept much, and my meals consisted of a poptart for breakfast, peanut butter crackers and gushers for lunch, and a couple of handfuls of cocoa puffs for dinner, I just want to let you know that anything I say is probably the result of both hunger and exhausting. So please try to see the metaphors, and don't get creeped out.
In the past 8 hours (time clocked at 1:50), I have dealt with 6 different crises...one being my own. 4 (and for about 20 minutes, 5) of them were simlutaneous at one point. It made me think. It made me think very hard about how I feel about you guys. And that's why I'm posting this thing. All of your problems are big in their own sense and I valued each one of them as I did my own. And although it was a challenge, it helped me to make you guys feel better. Truly, I value what you have to say and helping you in any way I can. I wish you all the best of luck and if you all act in accordance to how you told me you wanted to act tonight, things will turn out ok. Maybe at first...maybe not. But time can do as much bad as it can good if you mistreat it long enough. So please, do the right thing.
The only people who know this blog exists are listed on the right. If you haven't noticed the title of my page, it's called, "Yoshi's Story". For those of you non-gamers out there, that is an old Nintedo 64 game. It is about 9 little Yoshi's who are trapped on their island. The catch is that their island was turned into a storybook, making each page a different level to beat. The Yoshis work together to beat each level and, by doing so, come one step closer to winning back their precious "Happy Tree" that was taken from them by Baby Bowser. If your Yoshis are victorious, you win back the Happy Tree and the story has a happy ending. However, if one of your Yoshis die trying to beat a level, they are carried away by two flying bad guys (called Shy Guys) and the last you see of them is a tear run down their cute little face and then they are slammed into a prisoner room atop a scary tower. For those of you who have ever seen me play this game, I cannot watch what happens when my Yoshis die. I just can't. I shut the game off before I see them cry. I know it's pathetic, but they are just too cute.
What I'm alluding to is that each one of you is important to me. I am here for you. Anytime. Anywhere. I'm so glad I was able to make you guys feel better. Do what makes you happy. And know that if you fail, I'll be here to catch you. You are my little Yoshis, and you are the story of my life. All different, but all loved equally. Please know that.
Also, those of you who know me know that I am a huge fan of the musical "Into the Woods". For those of you who know what I'm taking about, here are some lyrics worth considering:
"The greater the good, the harder the blow." - the Steward
"Sometimes the things you most wish for, are not to be touched." - The Witch
"Though it's fearful,
Though it's deep, though it's dark
And though you may lose the path,
Though you may encounter wolves,
You can't just act,
You have to listen.
You can't just act, you have to think." - The Finale
"Nothing's quite so clear now.
(Do things, fight things)
Feel you've lost your way?
You decide, but
You are not alone.
Believe me,
Truly.
You move just a finger,
Say the slightest word,
Something's bound to linger,
Be heard.
People make mistakes: fathers, mothers.
People make mistakes, holding to their own.
Thinking they're alone.
Honor their mistakes
Everybody makes.
One and other's terrible mistakes.
Witches can be right.
Giants can be good.
You decide what's right.
You decide what's good.
Just remember:
Someone is on your side,
Someone else is not.
While we're seeing our side,
Maybe we forgot...
They are not alone.
No one is alone.
Hard to see the light now,
Just don't let it go.
Things will be alright now,
We can make it so.
Someone is on your side..." - No One is Alone
LaTeR
Like everyone else, I am under a great deal of stress. Unlike everyone else, I am ok. So although the things I say may not seem okay to you, know I am. For the time being. This is not a rant. Just the most ironic experience of my life, and it involves people I'm assuming are reading this. So here it goes:
I am seriously trying to figure out who is taping my life right now and trying to make it into a sitcom. I know that sounds really stupid, but you don't know what happened. Every phone call, every IM, every knock on the door today felt as though it was planned to the second. Every turn of event I saw coming hit me at once. It was like a hectic episode of Grey's Anatomy, minus the blood, surgery, and McDreamy. I'm not going into detail, but I just need to let out how extremely weird it was.
One fact I will enclose is that Greg and I are no longer together. It was for the best. Anyone who wants to know anything else can talk to me. I'm just not going to pour out my love life on the internet. And although I haven't slept much, and my meals consisted of a poptart for breakfast, peanut butter crackers and gushers for lunch, and a couple of handfuls of cocoa puffs for dinner, I just want to let you know that anything I say is probably the result of both hunger and exhausting. So please try to see the metaphors, and don't get creeped out.
In the past 8 hours (time clocked at 1:50), I have dealt with 6 different crises...one being my own. 4 (and for about 20 minutes, 5) of them were simlutaneous at one point. It made me think. It made me think very hard about how I feel about you guys. And that's why I'm posting this thing. All of your problems are big in their own sense and I valued each one of them as I did my own. And although it was a challenge, it helped me to make you guys feel better. Truly, I value what you have to say and helping you in any way I can. I wish you all the best of luck and if you all act in accordance to how you told me you wanted to act tonight, things will turn out ok. Maybe at first...maybe not. But time can do as much bad as it can good if you mistreat it long enough. So please, do the right thing.
The only people who know this blog exists are listed on the right. If you haven't noticed the title of my page, it's called, "Yoshi's Story". For those of you non-gamers out there, that is an old Nintedo 64 game. It is about 9 little Yoshi's who are trapped on their island. The catch is that their island was turned into a storybook, making each page a different level to beat. The Yoshis work together to beat each level and, by doing so, come one step closer to winning back their precious "Happy Tree" that was taken from them by Baby Bowser. If your Yoshis are victorious, you win back the Happy Tree and the story has a happy ending. However, if one of your Yoshis die trying to beat a level, they are carried away by two flying bad guys (called Shy Guys) and the last you see of them is a tear run down their cute little face and then they are slammed into a prisoner room atop a scary tower. For those of you who have ever seen me play this game, I cannot watch what happens when my Yoshis die. I just can't. I shut the game off before I see them cry. I know it's pathetic, but they are just too cute.
What I'm alluding to is that each one of you is important to me. I am here for you. Anytime. Anywhere. I'm so glad I was able to make you guys feel better. Do what makes you happy. And know that if you fail, I'll be here to catch you. You are my little Yoshis, and you are the story of my life. All different, but all loved equally. Please know that.
Also, those of you who know me know that I am a huge fan of the musical "Into the Woods". For those of you who know what I'm taking about, here are some lyrics worth considering:
"The greater the good, the harder the blow." - the Steward
"Sometimes the things you most wish for, are not to be touched." - The Witch
"Though it's fearful,
Though it's deep, though it's dark
And though you may lose the path,
Though you may encounter wolves,
You can't just act,
You have to listen.
You can't just act, you have to think." - The Finale
"Nothing's quite so clear now.
(Do things, fight things)
Feel you've lost your way?
You decide, but
You are not alone.
Believe me,
Truly.
You move just a finger,
Say the slightest word,
Something's bound to linger,
Be heard.
People make mistakes: fathers, mothers.
People make mistakes, holding to their own.
Thinking they're alone.
Honor their mistakes
Everybody makes.
One and other's terrible mistakes.
Witches can be right.
Giants can be good.
You decide what's right.
You decide what's good.
Just remember:
Someone is on your side,
Someone else is not.
While we're seeing our side,
Maybe we forgot...
They are not alone.
No one is alone.
Hard to see the light now,
Just don't let it go.
Things will be alright now,
We can make it so.
Someone is on your side..." - No One is Alone
LaTeR
1 Comments:
Val, you are one of the sweetest people I know, and I love you for it.
My highschool did Into the Woods my sophomore year, and since then it has been one of my absolute favorite musicals ever. I love how its so simple and happily ever after at the end of the first act, and then it turns into what real life is like with all these complex moral issues where right and wrong are not so distinct and simple. Those lyrics really hit home - so, (yet again) thank you.
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