You+Me=Us
I'm feeling really restless and really unaccomplished lately. Could be because there are certain things in my life I haven't done yet and want to do that are looming over my head. It makes me feel like the things I have done just aren't enough. For instance:
I've been doing Calculus for 2 days straight with this being my 3rd. I'm currently studying for my chapter 2 quiz and patiently awaiting an email back from my teacher with help on the one problem out of the entire chapter I can't seem to solve. I've been doing Calculus so much that John came over and took time out of his work to help me with it. (By the way, he's my official hero for teaching me a trick that made the entirety of chapter 2 section 6 a sinch!) ANYWAY, the course itself isn't even supposed to technically "start" until Friday and I'm almost done with chapter 2. I'd say that's pretty damn good! But I don't feel like I've done anything. Why? Because I'd rather be:
-Washing my car
-Playing guitar hero (yeah...yeah...don't even say it.)
-Reading "Breakfast of Champions" by Kurt Vonnegut
-Hanging out with people.
-Getting out of the house, maybe?
But my better judgements keep telling me to stay parked in front of my computer screen and keep doing calculus...until I die. Or finish the course. Which ever comes first. Maybe taking two courses in one summer wasn't a smart idea after all.
I think it's because I'm worried. I'm not back into the "Sesame Swing" as I like to call it. I come home from work and I'm dead. The last thing I can do is see straight, let alone do calculus. I'm afraid that I'll fall behind in my calc work and never get my requirements done in time because I won't have enough strength to do homework after work. And then I tell myself, "It's the same every year. The first two weeks suck, but you perk up after a while. It's not so bad.". But for now, it seems impossible, which is why I'm rushing to accomplish as much calc as I can stand on these precious few days off I have left. It's like a war between What-I-Should-Be-Doing and What-I-Want-To-Do in my head and it's driving me nuts. I know, I know, it's not the most pressing subject of the day, but it's all I have to talk about. Not complaining, just trying to sort things out for my own sanity.
So once again the What-I-Should-Be-Doing triumphs. Maybe I'll take a break later and wash my car because being able to see out of the front of my car tends to improve my driving. As for now, it's back to the books and sitting around waiting for a phone call that will never come...
Oh what the fuck...CUE THE SESAME MUSIC:
"It's another sunny day
For something fun to do!
Another sunny day
For learning something new!
There's so much to discover,
So come on out and play!
On another like no other sunny day!
Sunny days with friends,
Oh what can be better?
We need a perfect way to spend it together.
We've got a big idea or two
Of all the things that we can do.
Something fun for everyone
All we gotta do is choose,
'Cause there are
So many adventures waiting
For me and for you,
Just as soon as we figure out
What we're gonna do!"
LaTeR
P.S. Stolen from Sara because it made me giggle:
I've been doing Calculus for 2 days straight with this being my 3rd. I'm currently studying for my chapter 2 quiz and patiently awaiting an email back from my teacher with help on the one problem out of the entire chapter I can't seem to solve. I've been doing Calculus so much that John came over and took time out of his work to help me with it. (By the way, he's my official hero for teaching me a trick that made the entirety of chapter 2 section 6 a sinch!) ANYWAY, the course itself isn't even supposed to technically "start" until Friday and I'm almost done with chapter 2. I'd say that's pretty damn good! But I don't feel like I've done anything. Why? Because I'd rather be:
-Washing my car
-Playing guitar hero (yeah...yeah...don't even say it.)
-Reading "Breakfast of Champions" by Kurt Vonnegut
-Hanging out with people.
-Getting out of the house, maybe?
But my better judgements keep telling me to stay parked in front of my computer screen and keep doing calculus...until I die. Or finish the course. Which ever comes first. Maybe taking two courses in one summer wasn't a smart idea after all.
I think it's because I'm worried. I'm not back into the "Sesame Swing" as I like to call it. I come home from work and I'm dead. The last thing I can do is see straight, let alone do calculus. I'm afraid that I'll fall behind in my calc work and never get my requirements done in time because I won't have enough strength to do homework after work. And then I tell myself, "It's the same every year. The first two weeks suck, but you perk up after a while. It's not so bad.". But for now, it seems impossible, which is why I'm rushing to accomplish as much calc as I can stand on these precious few days off I have left. It's like a war between What-I-Should-Be-Doing and What-I-Want-To-Do in my head and it's driving me nuts. I know, I know, it's not the most pressing subject of the day, but it's all I have to talk about. Not complaining, just trying to sort things out for my own sanity.
So once again the What-I-Should-Be-Doing triumphs. Maybe I'll take a break later and wash my car because being able to see out of the front of my car tends to improve my driving. As for now, it's back to the books and sitting around waiting for a phone call that will never come...
Oh what the fuck...CUE THE SESAME MUSIC:
"It's another sunny day
For something fun to do!
Another sunny day
For learning something new!
There's so much to discover,
So come on out and play!
On another like no other sunny day!
Sunny days with friends,
Oh what can be better?
We need a perfect way to spend it together.
We've got a big idea or two
Of all the things that we can do.
Something fun for everyone
All we gotta do is choose,
'Cause there are
So many adventures waiting
For me and for you,
Just as soon as we figure out
What we're gonna do!"
LaTeR
P.S. Stolen from Sara because it made me giggle:
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